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Koukash Review

2022

On the Lunar Eclipse in Early November: For Maya

Grace Sleeman

I will be forty-one the next time the cicadas emerge.
You are visiting your mom in the hospital so I bring you a jar of simple syrup,
still warm, and roses I stole from a church garden. I used my pocket knife
to strip the thorns from the stems. I wait for you outside your house
and we watch the heat lightning flicker in the humid August darkness.
In a few months I will help you clean the dust from the baseboards
in the emptiness of your leaving. November will shred the softness
from the day and leave me bare-handed, low-voiced. I wake
amidst the smell of rotting roses, try to remember the lightness
in my chest standing on that corner with you, watching dry clouds
rumble bright and visceral beyond the mountain range. We wore
cotton dresses and boots, we turned our faces to the sky and
sat on the desiccated grass of the park and sank our fingers into the loam
like that would root us there together, two nodding dandelions.
The cicada songs hummed along my collarbones, the lightning
echoed behind my eyes. You laughed, and I watched you. This is how
religions are born. How else could this be real? Now I stand on that same
corner in the early hours of a November morning with my face turned
to the sky. The shadow of the earth is eclipsing the moon, staining it
bloody red. I am wearing wool and linen these days, those same boots.
I’ll watch the moon in silence, and then I’ll go back to bed.
There’s little to witness here. The moon will eclipse again. I try to root
myself but the ground is frozen. Where are my roses? Where is my knife?

Grace Sleeman

Grace Sleeman has fallen out of every tree she's ever climbed. For her, much of the contemporary feminine experience means finding the sensuality in the mundane and finding worms after a thunderstorm. She grew up among the lilacs in Damariscotta, Maine, and now lives in Portland with two cats and her best friend. Her work has been published by the Stonecoast Review, Asterism, and the Red Rock Review. You can find her online at @myrmiidons.

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